Last night I had a story dream.
Ever since I was little I’ve had wild, strange, fantastical, intricate dreams. I call them story dreams because—you guessed it—they unfold like stories. What’s unique about the dreams is that I am never myself; I’m always either an entirely different person, going through the story blindly, or I am a third person observer, with sometimes a little bit of limited omniscience. Don’t get me wrong, I also have normal dreams like walking around in public naked, but story dreams have been a part of my nights my entire life.
It’s not a secret to anyone I encounter in life, from strangers to friends, that I’m a writer. Lots of people ask me this certain, specific question, over and over again. I’ve grown to hate it. Not because it’s a bad or invasive question, it’s very reasonable. It’s also not a hatred directed at any of you; how could you possibly know my aversion to a very logical question to ask a writer? The reason I dread hearing it is because I never know exactly how to answer it. I feel like I’m lying every time I give an answer. “So why do you write?”
Well, you know, I just do.
I don’t know how to tell you more than that. The truth is, there isn’t really a reason, not in the way people are expecting. What I can say is that one source of inspiration for my writing has always been my story dreams. I have notebooks filled with descriptions of them, sometimes including (crudely done) drawings. There’s so many, it would take all of Santa’s elves working day and night to ever have them all published in my lifetime. I’ll never be able to write them all.
Not all of my stories are inspired by my story dreams, mind you. I get ideas and develop stories in a myriad of ways. I sometimes joke that you could leave me alone in an empty room with no sound or light and I’ll scratch a story into the floor about the darkness. It’s an instinct in me, the same way it’s an instinct for my lungs to take in my breath. So having dreams inject my brain at night with story after story sometimes feels like cheating at times.
If you’re wondering about it, the answer is yes—Sought in Sense is a product of a story dream. The dream wasn’t the entire book, that would have been one hell of a morning after, but Cory did insert herself into my head while I was sleeping one night when I was in high school. I guess it’s fitting, given how much Cory loves to sleep! Perhaps one of her older dream visions, one she may have even forgotten upon waking up, was of a young 16-year-old girl ice-skating with her friends on her birthday, or taking Myspace Angles pics and writing angst-ridden lyrics for her edgy punk rock band. I hope she told Kelly about it; Kelly would laugh for eternity at my pink and purple walled room.
Last night, my story dream was about two people who were opposite forces in a parallel universe. One was complete destruction and chaos, and the other was pure creation and purpose; neither of them knew of their own identities, so naturally and tragically (as all my stories often go), they fell in love. Now that I’m finished with work for the day, I’m going to go write the details down in my latest dream notebook.
Hobey-ho, my fellow dreamers,
Sam